gnawing on a piece of ...

jerky....homemade from moose hamburger (We are a hunting family and i'm the one who shot and killed dat moose!) it's one of the leanest wild meats out there save for elk, and there is something comforting in knowing how/when/why etc of what you are eating! i guesstimate that 3 pieces (i cut it up) is about 1 oz so 1 pt for 3 pieces and it's super chewy and last a long time and tastes soooooo good!

anywho, Wednesdays (starting last week) are busy here as Tempel is now in playschool (they just started a 3 year old program in our town instead of just a 4 year old one, yay)... and today i was the parent helper so that meant we had to be there earlier (it starts at 9) and that i had to take Tobin to the babysitters (he's only 15 months so can't go to school yet...ah, my baby)...but school is only until 10:30 so then the rest of the day is still ours...

coming home to a clean house was awesome...did i mention i de-hoarded it yesterday! so awesome to get rid of baggage!
i find that i've done this in stages...last year i got rid of emotional baggage (went for therapy actually!) to deal with mother issues...then i started working on the physical baggage (joined WW) and had some excellent results but was yo-yoing around that 175-180 give or take...now with my new addiction to watching Hoarders, i'm getting rid of actual material baggage...i threw out the teddy bear that i came with when i was adopted! granted i took pictures of it but yeah, i was holding onto that old, smelly thing like it was a person and you know what? it's not...it's a thing and the people in my life are what is important!!!

i feel so empowered over my future and i know that me getting healthier in all aspects is just going to skyrocket the future of my family...my husband is going to benefit , my kids are going to benefit and hopefully it will go further than that to my other family members...i just feel so positive like this is indeed the path the Creator (God) (i call him different names depending) has led me to be on!!!

the world truly is my oyster!!!

I'm doing it!!!

oh yeah...happy dance, happy dance...i'm working the plan and the plan is working for me!!
down 4.8 lbs this WI and i couldn't be happier...amazing what getting back on plan does for a girl!!!
things i did right...TRACKED EVERYTHING I PUT IN MY MOUTH,even those evil lil BLT's of the kids' plates!
Drank my water like a racehorse (and peed like one too!)
Got my shredding shoes out and on and did it 4 times since Tuesday!
Have the right frame of mind to be successful!

now to keep on with the momentum...later!

monday, monday...

yay...first weekend done and i may be out of WP's but i still have all my earned AP's!!! very happy about that!
also, yesterday through reading Sarah's blog, i found out about this challenge through x-weighted (the show) , soooooo...i signed up for it...
i seriously don't think i'll lose as much as they recommend but hey, if i'm eligible for weekly prizes, then why not...and the more tools i have at my disposal, the better, right???
so for my fitness goal i chose run a 5k (now i just have to start "training", which for now will just be shredding till it gets a lil nicer out)...i still have that couch to 5k training program on my computer somewhere, so eventually i'll dust that off and start...
i'm soooo ready to start living healthier and so happy i have started... my kids are even benefitting already as in instead of asking for a cookie for a snack, i get "mommy, celery pwease?"
well...off to get outside today cuz it's gorgeous out there i hear!!!

recurring theme but...

i realize now that i may fall off track from time to time, the important thing being that as long as i come back and keep at it,eventually i will get there...but it's going to be an ongoing lifetime battle...and i'm okay with that...in fact, i'm not even giving myself a time deadline to get to goal...i'll get there when i get there as long as i'm making an honest effort!
that and that i NEED NEED NEED my WW meetings...and i'm happy that my group is a prepaid group...i paid for my 12 weeks at the end of novemeber then started to make excuses for not making it to my meetings...5 times!!!
10.6 lbs later i went back and was shocked at the number but only slightly...i had guessed it to be around there! CHristmas was good (and my b-day, and hubby's b-day, and christmas party and NYE and NYD...etc!)
but i'm back...AGAIN
hasn't even been a full week yet and i can already see and feel a difference cutting out the highly processed, high fat food and adding veggies back in my eating has made!!! my face is where i see if first!!!
well...off to enjoy some family time!!!

wow...i'm a slacker!

totally been neglecting myself and this blog...
here i go again tho...

i'm back home and back in routine...thankfully i STS this past WI, but i gained two WI's before that...ug...not liking what the weekends do to me...gotta change that thinking and keep on keeping on...
happy i stayed for the meeting last nite as i needed to be reminded not to look at the big picture but to set those small goals that are achievable! but i still want to remember my ultimate goal of being a lifetime member...just not concentrate on it to the point of that "all or nothing" frame of mind...
plus i need to remember my ME time...as in making time to exercise...if i can't get it in during the day, then i need to take those 20 mins at nite after the kids are in bed...hubby will have to be content with being on the back burner for the total of 20 or 30 mins it takes...maybe i'll get him to join in...lol
5 lbs by thanksgiving...that's goal #1

WI good...

Pleasantly surprised that i actually lost a bit of weight at last nite's WI! down 1.6 with only being OP 3.5 days outta the 7...so now that i'm back with a vengeance i should steadily see results each week...and day 2 of level one Shred done! i forgot that it hurts after day one till about day 4 or 5, from what i remember so if i can just not think about the soreness stiffness or pain of my legs, arms, and abs during then i know by next week i'll be fine!
and gulp, i spent just over 300 bucks on groceries last nite but i'm fully stocked up on all kinds of wholesome goodness foods for the fam...tonite i'm gonna bbq steaks, boil new potatoes and mix in some dill seasoning, and try my hand at a bean salad...i have 12 points left for that feast!
i'm really in it to win it this time!
my reward for hitting my 10% this time (last time it was my contacts!) will be to go to a real hair salon (not the excuse for one in this town), and book myself for a professional dye job and cute cut (the last two or three haircuts i've gotten have not been exactly what i wanted but it was better than what it was, and for the price and conveinence of having it done here in town, i thought it was okay)...hubby is totally on board with this reward!
my 10% goal is 164.2 lbs...OMG i can't remember the last time i was in the 160's...probably back in my early 20's when i didn't weigh myself at all!
well...off to go start looking for a good healthy bean salad recipe!

WI tonite...

have to admit that i was soooo off plan this weekend, but really in the back of my mind, i wasn't really ready to commit till today...Sept. 1st...for some reason this whole summer i've had this date in my head for getting back at it full force, so this past week was like my warmup...
but today with gusto, i'm soooooo back at it...just finished shredding, joined up for the Sept Shred Challenge, getting back into routine, and i even made the BEST 3 point homemade hamburger (bison meat) soup i ever put in a pot yesterday! in fact it's all gone...we had it for lunch and supper!
now before my meeting i need to get to Walmart, then after my meeting i need to get to the grocery store for fresh veggies and fruit!
my head is in the game and even tho we are planning going away this weekend, i know i can stick as close to plan as possible, and even those lil indulgences are okay if i plan for them!
the reason we are going away besides it being the long weekend is we totally are trying to make up to our lil heartbroken Tempel...this Sunday we got her all excited to take her to the pool ( i even sent hubby to the pool first to make sure it was still open, cuz i knew it was closing for the season this weekend just didn't know if it was sunday or saturday), and he came back and said there were like 40 or 50 ppl there...at this point in time it was 3:30, so get the kids all ready and get packed up and off we go...shortly after 4...and they were just closing it up for the season...i cried i felt so bad as lil Tempel kept going "Pool, mom? pool ,dad?"
i tried to make the best of it and she seemed to settle for playin in our swimsuits in the bathtub...me, baby boy and her...but hubby felt so bad he promised her to take her to a hotel this weekend with a pool...so off we are going!!!

well i'm all shredded and sweaty so while baby boy is still napping, better go clean up! i'll report tomorrow on my WI!