half and half...

one week changes alot...i'm up 2.8 (i think), but TOM is here...not really caring...my neck/shoulder/back is giving me alot of aggravation including massive headaches, so i haven't worked out the past two days...also the headache could be stress related...
back before hubbys 39th birthday in December i forced him to go to the Doctor as i married him till death do us part, and i want that to be a ripe old age cuz gosh darnit i really really like him and want him to be around cuz i'm selfish!!! i wanted him to get as many tests as possible (a full meal deal as we said...lol)
now my hubby is not just overweight or obese...he's in the morbidly obese category and has been for some time...his mother has type two diabetes and his brother has had type one diabetes since the age of 12...and if you didn't know my dad died two years ago this June due to complications from Type two diabetes (one of the main reasons i undertook this journey called weightloss as i do not want to rob my children of my presence before i should be)...thus i really really worry about my hubby's health but you can't force someone on a diet unless they want it...
me being on WW has helped with the changing of our food choices tenfold, but he still wasn't losing any weight (i thought maybe his portion sizes and lack of breakfast was to blame)...
anywho...he missed his followup appointments a couple of times and it bothered me a lot...i thought he just wasn't ready to hear whatever the doctor was going to say...finally i made his 3rd appointment and have been beating him over the head for him to remember to go today and he made it!!!
this is the best part now....
he has hypothyroidism...yep~! badabing-badaboom and one pill everyday (probably forever) and he'll be fine...every other test was perfect...in fact the dr. was amazed at his cholestoral level (i think he thought for sure with his weight as high as it is, that he was supposed to be thru the roof or something)...but his level is that of a 15 year old!!! i mean perfectly perfect in every test!!!
i feel like i just inherited a million dollars cuz i get my hubby back healthy!!! and for the rest of our lives...
so the original plan the dr had for him to go on a metabolism booster is scrapped for now...we'll see what happens to his weight once his thyroid starts working the way it was intended...
i so want to hug the doctor!!!!
soon we can say good bye to sleep apnea, joint pain, fatigue, 5 X clothing...omg, i'm just so pumped!!!
needless to say a bit of my headache is gone...
now i have a dr appt next wednesday and i'm gonna ask to see a specialist about a breast reduction (i have wanted one forever as i'm certain most of my back/shoulder/neck things are due to my breast size...i always get pain when i put a sports bra on...)
well....off to take some robax platinum!

WW WI...

finally a result i like...lol...down to 182.8! but more importantly i am down another inch in my waist to 37"!!!oh, and down a half in the hips, and a half in the bust!
still at 179 in my x-weighted challenge tho, for the 3rd week!arrrrgh!
oh well, at least i'm changing my body shape! and my cardio is outta this world, imo...
gotta run, still got a million things to do today and i've done nothing so far!yikes!
i'm the queen of procrastination!!!

musings for the day...

i'm almost overloaded with silly lil musings today...first off i'm still Taebo-ing everyday and it really really hit me last nite just how much i miss Muay Thai Kickboxing...enough that i went on a search for the closest club (alas two hours away is just too far away to travel twice a week for a two hour class)...bah, but last nite my nostalgia got the best of me and i dug my hand wraps out and did wrap my hands for my workout...i skipped yesterday afternoon cuz i knew hubby wasn't going to be home at nite and i didn't want to snack away my hard work. i also found some vids on youtube so i could practice my technique...but it's been 8 years since i did it! i forgot the ankle pain with the jumping around...still too heavy for that!
also, this whole clean eating thing has really got me thinking...i know i feel way better when i get my daily fruit and veggies in instead of all that processed crap that it out there but wow, it's expensive and i have have have to plan out menu's so that i use the majority of the veggies before they go bad (hubby commonly refers to the crisper as the rotter...lol)
tonight i'm making an asian peanut beef and noodle dish for supper (hope the kids like it...it's my first time trying it)...
also, i miss having close girlfriends...since moving here i have had like one friend that i felt close to because we had our first babies together (we were in prenatal together, then she was my neighbour in the hospital and i heard her going thru labour and delivery as i was in the nursery with my lil girl), but she moved away a year ago and i miss her so much...also, most of my close close girlfriends live too far away or are single, no kids so not a heck of a lot in common anymore...
and this town is sooooooo clique-y, it sucks at times...like hubby came home last nite and said "i'm buying you a golf cart and a caddy, so you stay away from those hockey ladies"...meaning that a bunch of the town "yummy mommies/cougars" started a woman's hockey team (and i can't skate so i didn't join) but they are more of the town gossip than a professional team (as in they practice or play a game then spend the rest of the nite drinking, smoking pot, partying with people much younger than them, and some have even had pictures of themselves or body parts circulated throughout town...in fact my hubby just saw one of their asses last nite on some guy's camera)....yeah, not my scene...
but joining volleyball seems to be a good choice...and hopefully when fastball starts up, those that are on the hockey team have partied themselves out...otherwise i may opt out of that...
but i still miss having someone to confide in...thank goodness i have blogging...lol...
also, i can't wait to start training for my 5k on may 29th! i'm getting a registration form sent to me to take part in the "Perogy Run" in another small town not quite 2 hours away!!!it's part of my fitness goal for the X-weighted challenge...i want spring here already so i can start walk/jogging, then walk/running, then jog/running then run/running! lol...yeah the couch to 5 k program! i've worked it out that i will have to start training come March 20th (the first day of spring) so i'm ready for the actual race day! if it's not nice enough outside by then, then i need to ask a friend of mine to come over so i can use her treadmill...lol...and her babysitting service...lol
well, that's all of my musings for today...i think!

whoops...

so i came home from my meeting and told my hubby i lost 1.2 lbs but just checked my stats and it was only .2...whoops...where i grabbed that extra lb from is beyond me, i think i just wanted it to say 1.2... but i measured myself today and i'm down an inch everywhere again!yay...43-38-43...kickin the hourglass still!
so i didn't track after friday last week and i need need need to change that because i'm working out more therefore way more hungry and i know i won't see results if i eat my activity points...i know this...i have to follow this now...and save up my wp's for sunday as we are going out for supper that nite!!!yay valentines, boo extra cals!
also, i'm in a bidding war on ebay for a set of 9 billy blanks dvd's...he's my new fitness icon! i'm winning tho! bootcamp shall be mine!!!lol

working it!

feeling oh so great this week...working out lots and lots...i've managed to do the Taebo workout every day this week (except today, but today isn't over...lol)
i don't really care what the scale reads cuz i can feel my body changing and i love that feeling!
i'm going to try to post new belly pics too...just cuz...there may not be a difference but it's good to have them to compare to, right?lol
crazy great weekend and tomorrow my Colts are going to win the Superbowl, YAY!!

the catch up game...

wow, have i missed a few things the past week or so..another quick update, i made it to my WW meeting last nite and was soooo happy to see a .4 loss cuz i was sure i would have STS or gained after the events of the past week or so...making and testing cakes/cupcakes/icing/dips/etc takes a toll and i for sure it was going to show up on the scale (plus i think i only got in two or three workouts)...

speaking of the scale...i am also playing catch up in reading some of my fellow bloggies posts out there and i just read Deb Shrinks' one on "how often do you weigh yourself", so i think that's what i'm going to address in this post...

i do it more than the once a week because i am part of the X-weighted challenge that i'm part of...WI for that is Monday morning for me, and let me tell ya, i like that number so much more!lol...this past WI was 179, whereas WW was 184.8...does the two full days in between make that much of a difference? i guess time will tell...
it's amazing what those numbers do to you...mentally, emotionally...i really am a slave to the scale...i hate admitting that but i know that it's something i have to work on now...i would really like to say i'm so much more than those numbers, but believing it or putting it into practice takes something that i don't think i have just yet...at least i can start working on that tho...

at least i'm back to working out and tracking...i've switched from Shredding (it really was aggravating my shoulder too much), to Taebo and wow! i'm working out for 45 mins a day now and getting a really really great sweat on and love it...i'm earning 5 AP's a workout...just have to remember not to eat them (otherwise i don't lose as much)...hopefully i can keep it up till it's nice enough out to start the couch to 5k program again (my fitness goal with the x-weighted challenge is to run a 5 k)
also, i realize that i really do miss Muay Thai Kickboxing...oh well...

laters...

so many blogs...so lil time...lol

so i blog here, i blog there, i'm a blogging sl*t...lol...

quick update...couldn't get in tonite for my WW meeting so i don't know what my Official weight is this week (i got on my home scale, the same one i use for my x-weighted WI's on monday morning), so unofficially it read 183 (while on monday morning it said 180...either or i'm down...just don't know how much...

busy planning my DD's 3rd birthday party (her first party-party with friends and stuff) and it's going soooo great (9 kids coming so far)...we rented the senior gathering place (it has a kitchen and ample room), in the process of making a paper mache Dora pinata, getting a Dora cake pan from a neighbour tomorrow (have the cake decorating stuff from another neighbour and practicing on cupcakes), need need need to get to town tomorrow or thursday to get more stuff!!! not to mention a birthday outfit for my DD!!!


so, i got my shoulder fixed on saturday morning, but didn't work out till today...and i started off ready to Shred it, but gave up after the first circuit cuz i could already feel the stress in my shoulder/back...but i wanted to burn calories so i popped in my Billy Blanks Taebo Get AMPED jumpstart cardio DVD and started by watching the tutorial of the basic moves...
my last attempt at doing this video lasted two minutes...i was lost, it was too hard and i wasn't ready!
this time i made it 30 mins!!!its a 50 min video...so i have a minigoal-goal...get thru the whole video!!!lol
now i feel a lil sore but a good sore!
time to hit the hay now tho...without my hubby (he's off to the big lights for a meeting tomorrow)...ah, at least i get the whole bed to myself!!!:)

soooooooo (ow, ow, ow)

i neglected to mention on Wednesday's post that i was in a bit of pain, but i decided then that it really wasn't that bad...and i worked out that nite after moving beds around during the day (level two of the shred is a bit more shoulders) and whatever the initial injury in the shoulder was, i just wound up aggravating it worse...to the point where i cannot lift my arm at all today without getting a sharp pain in my shoulder...arrrgh...
so no shredding yesterday or today, and tonite i have an appointment with a lady that does alternative therapies, so i hope she heals it or fixes it or whatever...otherwise i have to wait till monday for the chiropractor (if there is a time available then that is)...so muscle relaxants and ice are my friends...

so important to stay OP cuz of the lack of earning AP's...hopefully i can get out tomorrow for a walk if it's nicer out...i at least got out today at lunch for 10 mins to go get the mail...need to put together a lower body workout to do too!

well...need to go ice now...

win one, lose none?

so,i may have kicked some serious @ss at last week's WW WI (down 4.8) and then kicked even more @ss at my monday morning X-weighted WI (was down 6 lbs) but last nite's WI at my meeting had me scratching my noggin...up 2.2!!!
i didn't let me get me down tho...this morning when i measured myself i'm down an inch everywhere...and i think i cannot save up all my wp's and ap's for a sunday splurge (in the past i've saved them up and splurged on the friday nite or saturday but never the sunday) so that's out...also, last WI i didn't eat any or very few of my AP's, so this week i'm gonna do the same...
also, i did up both my weights and my level in my shred DVD workout, so this article that a FB friend posted really made sense to me...
http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=why_the_scale_goes_up_when_you_start_a_new_workout_plan

anywho...i'm not dwelling on it...just going to keep on keeping on and see if it all works out in the wash (ie, next WI)...laters!!!

My first X-weighted WI...

was pure awesome-ness...i totally rocked it out and am down 6 lbs...it's just weird to have two WI's a week...i had emailed the admins to ask if i should be using my official WW WI # from 6 days prior and they suggested i WI monday morning, before i log in to the x-weighted site, so i did!!!
so as long as i am around the 181 mark with my WW WI tomorrow nite, then i know i'm spot on!!!
also, i upped it to level 2 in my SHredding today! i totally forgot about those military presses with the leg raise...owwwwwie! but a good owwwwie!lol
okay, baby boy is waking up so i gotta run...
oh wait, my almost 3 year old baby girl slept through the nite without wetting her bed! We started on Friday nite with no pullups as the odd time she would wake up without a wet one, and the incentive to try to wake up and go in the middle of the nite was she would get new Dora sheets for her bed the first morning she woke up dry...
can't believe she will be turning 3 on the 29th...where the heck did my baby girl go????

momentum friday's!

living life the momentum way is so easy when you prepare, prepare, prepare...and i soooo have the time to prepare...you know, cut up them veggies, look up healthier versions of recipes, etc...
now just to keep up the momentum! and track track track!
i'm not even bored of the water yet (i say yet, cuz i know i will, but i have a preparation plan all ready to go...yep, adding the lemon!!!)
for now a coffee in the morning, followed by water, and water and then either in the late afternoon or evening i have a diet pepsi!

and i'm pretty dang sure i'm addicted to the x-weighted site...yep, there are close to 4000 ppl (or more now) signed up for the 26 week challenge so that means lots of blogs and bios and pics and stuff to read!!!

and i'm on target for shredding so far (last week i wanted to do it 3 times, and did) this week i wanted to shred 4 times and i did it!
next week i'm upping it to 5 and going up to level 2!!!

oh, and i now have two WI days...i emailed the admins of the x-weighted challenge to ask if i should use my Tuesday nite (a full 6 days prior) WI amount for their weigh in and they suggested i do it like everyone else and weigh in on monday mornings when prompted to on the site (i just think i'm going to have to ignore that number so i don't get ahead of myself for my WW WI)

well...we are having fresh pickeral fish for supper tonite and i'm making brown rice instead of the long grain white...so i better go and start that oh and chop up my veggies for the huge salad that is making it's way to more and more of our family meals~!!!
laters!

gnawing on a piece of ...

jerky....homemade from moose hamburger (We are a hunting family and i'm the one who shot and killed dat moose!) it's one of the leanest wild meats out there save for elk, and there is something comforting in knowing how/when/why etc of what you are eating! i guesstimate that 3 pieces (i cut it up) is about 1 oz so 1 pt for 3 pieces and it's super chewy and last a long time and tastes soooooo good!

anywho, Wednesdays (starting last week) are busy here as Tempel is now in playschool (they just started a 3 year old program in our town instead of just a 4 year old one, yay)... and today i was the parent helper so that meant we had to be there earlier (it starts at 9) and that i had to take Tobin to the babysitters (he's only 15 months so can't go to school yet...ah, my baby)...but school is only until 10:30 so then the rest of the day is still ours...

coming home to a clean house was awesome...did i mention i de-hoarded it yesterday! so awesome to get rid of baggage!
i find that i've done this in stages...last year i got rid of emotional baggage (went for therapy actually!) to deal with mother issues...then i started working on the physical baggage (joined WW) and had some excellent results but was yo-yoing around that 175-180 give or take...now with my new addiction to watching Hoarders, i'm getting rid of actual material baggage...i threw out the teddy bear that i came with when i was adopted! granted i took pictures of it but yeah, i was holding onto that old, smelly thing like it was a person and you know what? it's not...it's a thing and the people in my life are what is important!!!

i feel so empowered over my future and i know that me getting healthier in all aspects is just going to skyrocket the future of my family...my husband is going to benefit , my kids are going to benefit and hopefully it will go further than that to my other family members...i just feel so positive like this is indeed the path the Creator (God) (i call him different names depending) has led me to be on!!!

the world truly is my oyster!!!

I'm doing it!!!

oh yeah...happy dance, happy dance...i'm working the plan and the plan is working for me!!
down 4.8 lbs this WI and i couldn't be happier...amazing what getting back on plan does for a girl!!!
things i did right...TRACKED EVERYTHING I PUT IN MY MOUTH,even those evil lil BLT's of the kids' plates!
Drank my water like a racehorse (and peed like one too!)
Got my shredding shoes out and on and did it 4 times since Tuesday!
Have the right frame of mind to be successful!

now to keep on with the momentum...later!

monday, monday...

yay...first weekend done and i may be out of WP's but i still have all my earned AP's!!! very happy about that!
also, yesterday through reading Sarah's blog, i found out about this challenge through x-weighted (the show) , soooooo...i signed up for it...
i seriously don't think i'll lose as much as they recommend but hey, if i'm eligible for weekly prizes, then why not...and the more tools i have at my disposal, the better, right???
so for my fitness goal i chose run a 5k (now i just have to start "training", which for now will just be shredding till it gets a lil nicer out)...i still have that couch to 5k training program on my computer somewhere, so eventually i'll dust that off and start...
i'm soooo ready to start living healthier and so happy i have started... my kids are even benefitting already as in instead of asking for a cookie for a snack, i get "mommy, celery pwease?"
well...off to get outside today cuz it's gorgeous out there i hear!!!

recurring theme but...

i realize now that i may fall off track from time to time, the important thing being that as long as i come back and keep at it,eventually i will get there...but it's going to be an ongoing lifetime battle...and i'm okay with that...in fact, i'm not even giving myself a time deadline to get to goal...i'll get there when i get there as long as i'm making an honest effort!
that and that i NEED NEED NEED my WW meetings...and i'm happy that my group is a prepaid group...i paid for my 12 weeks at the end of novemeber then started to make excuses for not making it to my meetings...5 times!!!
10.6 lbs later i went back and was shocked at the number but only slightly...i had guessed it to be around there! CHristmas was good (and my b-day, and hubby's b-day, and christmas party and NYE and NYD...etc!)
but i'm back...AGAIN
hasn't even been a full week yet and i can already see and feel a difference cutting out the highly processed, high fat food and adding veggies back in my eating has made!!! my face is where i see if first!!!
well...off to enjoy some family time!!!